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Facing Loneliness
All this LifeSpan, seventy years now, I've had shadowy awareness of my OverReaching SoulContract. I never questioned following "orders" heard from beyond, now referred to as prompts. As an emerging Elder, I grasp the concept of Masking and understand I'm asked to UnMask five layers before stepping to the Other Side.
The First Loneliness Layer coincides with the LifeSpan Birth, when the SoulContract is erased from conscious awareness, thus dividing self from soul. Family Legacy DownLoad comes next, a rich immersion in family confluence that could enforce Masking & Repression or encourage Safe Expression. My SoulContract called me to soldier through restrictive silence until my teens, though I would not open the InnerRealm Portals until age thirty-five.
Patsy Cline, "Crazy," 1961 — I was six years old when my Mother moved the family away from Montana Roots to a West Coast, Hippie-Inclined Community. As positive as this move was, it came at a price, primarily the physical separation from the Early DownLoad Site as controlled by my paternal grandfather. There was no ceremony, just a pack up and go ruling laid down by my Mother. It makes sense that a part of me would feel crazy, torn from the perception of love and caring into a chanting, singing community devoted to keeping a good vibe, no matter how troubled the waters might be.
