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I recently accepted a storyboard and director position for a local short film project. There are two story branches: past life killing and OCD pattern release. I decided to place the past life murder influence in the background as a trigger for the surface world OCD struggle.
I removed the word disorder from the acronym OCD, resulting in a movement ranging from obsessive to compulsive. I visualize the movement range as a teeter-totter, with compulsive on the left symbolizing the past and obsessive on the right, symboling the future. This visual provides a grid from which I am developing my main character based on movement and musical scoring.
The obsessive end of my teeter-totter is familiar. I obsess over making choices when writing or playing online games. I obsess over the possibility of breaking glass and getting cut when handling glass kitchen items. I obsess over the slightest physical ailment, creating stories with horrendous outcomes which paralyze me. I obsess over potential dangers should I venture out into the world. The compulsive end of my tetter-totter is less familiar. I knew to look for controlling habits with a desperately compelled understory.
I have the fortune to be training with a fellow struggling with a crippling case of needing to do things right. I’ve been upgrading my ability to release this habit from my system, and right away, I realized that my needing to do things right is my way of desperately trying to control my obsessions.
